Friday, February 09, 2007
do one thing everyday that scares you..
It would be an understatement to say that my week was "busy". "busy" just doesn't grasp the whole idea of having to do so much in a little span of time. my week was congested with activities, both acad and extr-curricular. i had my radio play presentation, oral interpration of poetry, speech choir performance and rehearsals, ethnic music training, gigs, quizzes, meetings, orientations. hay naku. kaya ako pumapayat e. tapos, i needed a helium balloon for my perfomance of poetry, i searched the whole quezon city for it (oa naman. sa sm north lang ako naghanap). pero wala. buti nalang meron sa shop nila abi, which is in cavite. so i had to go home and commute all the way back to UP. at hindi ako pinasakay ng mrt kasi baka daw pumutok ang lobo at magpanic ang mga pasahero. akalain my bomba (makes sense..) so i had to take a bus. nagalit yata sakin yung katabi ko sa baby bus kasi nakadikit sa muka nya yung lobo. at thank God hindi pumutok ang lobo. at ayun, since hindi ako nag-mrt, i was stuck in traffic. i was late for my psych101 class. may quiz pa naman dun. to cut the story short, nakapagquiz din naman ako at nagamit ko ang balloon sa perfromance ko. hay.
But that wasn't what i really wanted to tell you. last wednesday, i had four appointments. as in apat. and i had to be in four different places, at the same time. i had to attend my bowling class, an orientation, an org activity and a rehearsal for a speech choir presentation.. kamusta naman yun?! well, i had two options: magiging mananaggal ako, only that id have to divide mydelf into 4 parts instead of 2. pero ang pangit naman kung aatend ako sa meeting with only 1/4 of my biological self present. nakakatakot naman yun. my second option was to attend one of them. pero ayoko namang sa isa lang pumunta. i won't be able to concentrate knowing that i chose one over the other. nakakaguilty. so obviously, i chose neither. kumain nalang ako sa tokyo tokyo magisa. and while waiting for my order, i rememebered a line i heard from the podcast we listened to in my voice and diction class: do one thing everyday that scares you. so i took a pen and wrote at the back of the receipt the things that im scared to do. here's some of what i wrote (hindi ko na sinulat yung iba, nakakahiya e. here are some of the less embarrassing stuff..):
*eat kare-kare (ako lng yta anh hindi kumakain nito)
*eat kare-kare with bagoong (you see, its another thing to eat it with bagoong..)
*eat things i don't eat (such as dinuguan, manggang hilaw, kinilaw..)
*sumali ulit sa debate (ewan ko ba..)
*pumunta sa likod bahay ng magisa sa gabi..
*manuod ng horror (specifically shake, rattle and roll) sa sinehan ng mag-isa
*magtumbling (muntik na akong mabalian dati..)
*mag dive sa pool (yung pang olympics na dive)
*take an IQ test (nakakatakot..)
*play basketball again :(
Those are some of the things. hindi ko na ikukunwento kung bakit yan ang mga kinakatakutan ko.. basta. i think it's good to do things that scare you. doing this everyday means becoming a better peron everyday. you get to broaden you horizon and expand your box. you get to challenge your self every now and then which i think is really healthy for the soul. the only thing that limits you is yourself. go..be free. (wow, may ganung drama..)
so ayun lang.
God's night.
_marvin_
7:33 AM