Monday, January 14, 2008
i still can't believe it. and i don't think anybody could easily do. it is during these times when we are reminded of the transience of life. nobody really knows how it works. no person truly understands. it just happens. just like that.
if i can remember it right, i knew him since nursery. he is a year older than i am. i see him almost everyday of my life in atheneum. we grew up together, literally. but we were not close friends. i couldn't even remember a single moment that we actually had a real conversation. but i know we knew each other.
i still can't believe it. even after seeing him last week. he is gone. and it's not easy. i'm not sure if i'm hurt. well, probably. i don't know. i'm not sure if i'm gonna miss him. cause i don't know him that well to know what to miss him for. but still, part of me was lost when he left. part of me refused to accept it happened to him. my heart leapt the moment i heard about it. it is something you wouldn't expect to happen to someone you know. to someone familiar. i thought things like these only happen to strangers on tv. but it's real even if we refuse to believe it.
and i still can't believe it.
sayang. sayang ang buhay niya. sayang yung mga dapat sana ay magagawa pa niya. sayang.. pero nasayang nga ba? ewan. o baka naman nagawa na niya lahat ng kailangan niyang gawin. marami pa kaya siyang balak gawin? ewan.
nobody knows how it works. no person truly understands.
only God does.
it's moments like these when we are faced with the reality that we are not really in total control of our lives. some things happen. whether we like it or not. Yes, we are the captains of our own ships. but we shouldn't forget that the ocean, the waves and the wind come into play when we sail. Is there a reason for everything?
i believe so.
nobody knows how it works. no person truly understands.
only God does.
and i think that's enough.
enough reason to be sure that we are in good hands.
enough reason to know that everything is gonna be fine.
may His Will be done.
i send my condolences to the family, friends and loved ones of hephep arias.
God bless.
_marvin_
10:41 PM
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A b o u t _ m e - - - - - - -
I was a swimmer, a tennis and volleyball player. I was a dancer, pep squad member and stage performer. I was a team leader and CAT Executive officer. 'Hyperactive' would be an understatement if you were to describe my lifestyle.. And who would ever think that somebody like me has a congenital heart defect?
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im marvin. im from cavite. im a speech major from upd. i love to eat, to sleep, to talk, to laugh. i love having fun. id love to meet shrek one day. marami kasing nagsasabing magkamuka kami. nakadilat na daw mga mata ko nung pinanganak ako.. mahilig ako kumain ng spaghetti, pizza, marshmallow, chicken at french fries.
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It never occurred to me that for the past 17 years of my existence, I was at risk of having a heart failure, and my active lifestyle made the risk grow even more. That is why I thank God and His instruments here on earth - my family, obzite, my friends and the people who touched my life - for keeping my heart beating all this time..